I've decided to be brutally honest about everything,so here I go.
I was born in Albania and I lived there until I was 11. My parents were very decent people, and still are.If it werent for them I wouldn't be here today. I admit That i've lied frequently to people because I didn't trust them and felt better lying to you than being honest. I never knew Kyo from dir en grey , in fact I only just found out about him a month ago in a internet article. I feel deeply sorry for having caused anyone any trouble. there are too many regrets for me to count. I hope none goes through the pain I have gone through. I've tried to be decent but my mental instability I have humiliated myself to the point where i no longer care for my reputation. Also i am not going to update this site any longer.I'm prepared for the consequences.

Goodbye.

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ITS TRUE!
and WORLD WAR III is going to be online!
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The Ascent of Everest – A Threnody (For the Victims of November Second)

^{Listen to this song, it is life changing. It moved me deeply. It speaks of a universal message.}

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1. [ ] When you doodle, you say it's a simple drawing.
2. [x] Always provide excuses such as "Still in development".(Storyboard...pose references..coherency *headspoledes*...)
3. [x] Can only create an excuse of "I used a mouse, not a tablet"
4. [ ] You only draw faces. (I find emotion easier to portray through facial expression rather than pose/movement)
5. [/] You always draw faces at the same direction.(I call it the cure of right handed-ness)
6. [x] The proportion is awful.(I cant draw fat people...)
7. [ ] Every character looks the same.
8. [ ] Uses different hairstyle to distinguish characters.
9. [ ] Cannot distinguish left and right direction.
10. [ ] "Sketch? Who cares about that?"
11. [ ] You only draw sketches.
12. [ ] What's a LAYER??? (I HATE using layers/esp when it comes to saving the drawing..)
13. [ ] You always draw one character.
14. [ ] You always draw characters in same angle.
15. [ ] No matter how you draw, it's the same expression.
16. [/] You couldn't draw characters with movement.
17. [/] You barely draw feet.
18. [ ] You can't draw figures from high or low angles.(its Mearsier to draw characters from extrme engles, theres so many cute kids that i can use asa refences :3)
19. [ ] You don't even know the definition of high and low angle drawing.
20. [ ] A shitty figure drawing in dynamic pose can be turned into a 4th Dimensional abstract. (lol hwat O_0)
21. [ ] Same character looks totally different when it is drawn in different angle or direction.
22. [ ] You can't even draw anything other than characters or draw everything except characters.
23. [ ] You can only draw cute characters.
24. [ ] You can only draw handsome characters. (hmmm only one answer tio this: ILIKEHOTBOYS)
25. [ ] Hands is your nightmare.(more of a challenge than anightmare...)
26. [ ] Your character's hands are always hidden behind.
27. [x] The idea sketch is professional but the actual quality is shitty. (I'm very preciser when it comes to being serioud about my creations...maybe a little too precise...)
28. [ ] You try to cover up one of the eyes with hair so that you can draw only one eye.
29. [ ] Your works are always asymmetrical.(its so difficult to draw eyes in the same level)
30. [/] Line art only = Finished piece.
31. [ ] Rough sketch only = Finished piece (I never submit anything I wasnt moderately serious about theres way too much crap on here already.. I hate fangirls so freaking much)
32. [ ] You have no anatomical knowledge.
33. [ ] You only draw eyes.( the only thing i'm really good at)
34. [x] Character's hand and eyes are huge. (huge eyes on girls are really fun to draw! but huge hands on guys are really ugly (Does this signify that he has a big you-know-what? :\ )
35. [/] You're poor in drawing the position of boobs.(lol any girl will tell you that its normal to have imperfect boobs, if yours are perfectly round you should start worrying)
36. [ ] Your artworks are free from all logic. (what is this logic you speak of? ARt has no logic! IT has the POWER to change the WORLD)
37. [ ] You lose confidence when other people's works look great. (I get mad when i see softcore porn considered "art" thats about it I mean I'm sure that the guy who is getting a boner off of a naked picture of some cheap whore thinks its art but the rest of us dont)
38. [/] You think they are genius when they come up with satisfied quality. (not so much genious just: WHY ASM I NOT GETTING PAID for spending so muych time and money on this?)
39. [x] You collect other people's works as practice references but you actually collect them as a collection.(I have like 16 chobits art prints ! I love Freya!Shes so cool *_*)
40. [ ] While drawing, you easily lose patience and go do something else (I can only draw well when i'm surrounded by loud noises!)
41. [ ] Tablet is your god item.
42. [/] You regain confidence when other people's works look crappy than yours. (hohohoh.its true TT_TT..)
43. [/] You are more than willing to draw but you lose the spirit so easily. (I get distracted easily by voices of peopel and gossip)
44. [ ] You completely lose the confidence when you see the works of true genius.
45. [ ] You draw once a month or even once a year. (lol there's been no day in past few years when I haven't drawn anything..)
46. [ ] You get mad when their favorite artists are being lazy.
47. [ ] When you draw hentai art, you end up drawing grotesque horror pictures because their proportion is so fucking awful. (hentai is art? i thought it was just what people who are unconfident and/or unattractive jacked off to...:\)
48. [ ] You don't even have faith in yourself.
49. [ ] You can't even draw since the beginning.
50. [ ] You realized there are problems and know where to fix but you never do. (I woukld LOVE TO work out problems its jsut that i am NEVER given the chance to)

9 out of 50 =20%, not bad!

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I have IMPORTANT news! A study has found that 57% of young people believe their generation uses social networking sites for self-promotion, narcissism and attention seeking. There was even this article in Psychology Today (November/December 2008 issue) Which had an article called "From sucker to saint: why you see your dunce capo as a halo" which described an experiment that was done by Stanford Reasearchers which I find relevant to mention here because it explained how some people "cast themselves as noble to avoid feeling naïve". It also stated that "And if you can't call ego-threatening individuals evil or stupid. you just plain reject them." Yes, thats a quote from the article. I also found this paragraph to be interesting ;

"Monin(one of the researchers) stated that we judge people on two main axes: morality and competence. In defending your ego, iof you can't impugn someone's ethics, you call her stupid."

(look up the atricle on psychologytoday.com if you wanna know more)So, anyway, to get to the point, I'm simply going to say that all of this doesnt suprise me in the least bit, I've known quite a few jerks who thrive on others' praise and nothing else, and I feel sorry for them more than anything else.I'm quite competetive myself, but My competetiveness is more centered around being as creative as possible in my self expression than just simply trying attract attention because I want praise.

Oh... I'm off to college so I probably wont be updating much in the next couple of months. I really need to focus on my school work, morwe tahn anythign else right now...

I'll probably put some more sailor moon/fashion design stuff up soon if I feel liek it...(no promises though).